Break Free from Emotional Baggage with Tenya Eickenberg

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Hello everyone and welcome to another episode of the Art of Life podcast.

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So today I have a really really special guest with me.

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She is Tanya.

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She's an energy healer and a self care coach and she is going to be shortly

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starting her quantum healing membership.

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So there's so much that we've got to learn from her.

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So welcome on board Tanya.

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Thank you so much.

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So before we dive into everything, just walk us through your journey.

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How did you get into all of this?

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Was this your plan all along?

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And what are you doing now?

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Oh, was getting into energy healing my plan all along.

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No,

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someone asked me on, on a podcast the other day, what did

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I want to do when I was little?

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And I wanted to be a photographer.

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And ironically, that is where I met my husband.

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Um, we both worked for a photography studio, and so I think that the

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universe was kind of putting that.

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That kind of in my pathway to meet him because he was my, he was my escape from

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the, what I, what I didn't know at the time was the turmoil of, of my household.

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Um, I grew up in a home with a mom who was diagnosed with bipolar disorder

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when she was about 28 years old.

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And so I was about seven or eight years old when, when that diagnosis came in.

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So you can imagine that she was struggling.

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For, for several years before that diagnosis.

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And so she took up a lot of the emotions in the house, not realizing

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that the four of us kids in the house were unable to have emotions because.

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She was taking all of them.

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And it's not, and I'm not saying this in a, like, oh, she took them away from us.

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Like, we weren't allowed to have them because she was

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selfish and she took them all.

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She was dealing with her own stuff, right?

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It was, she, she had her own mental illness that she had to deal with.

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Then there was my dad who was learning to deal with a spouse who

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was bipolar he was in the military.

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And so he had this perceived, um, notion of how somebody was supposed to

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behave and, you know, that just kind of really threw a wrench into perspective.

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And so he had to learn how to deal with that and help us for kids.

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if you're a parent who doesn't know in the beginning how to deal

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with this stuff, how can you teach your kids how to deal with it?

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And so we learned early on to walk on eggshells, to keep our

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emotions to ourselves, to stay out of the house as much as possible.

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you know, and being that, that generation X. Uh, uh, generation, we

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are, we're known as the feral generation.

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And it's just like you, we, we raised ourselves out in the wild.

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Um,

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and there was, there were a lot of times throughout my childhood where,

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um, self care came into my awareness, but I never really picked up on it.

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Like meditate.

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My mom used to teach meditation to the kids in the neighborhood.

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And so she was showing.

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Us how to do self care, what self care to do, but not really kind of saying,

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Hey, come here and let me explain why you should be doing this and why it's a

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good idea to get started in doing this.

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And then there are a few other things that happened along the way, but the

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pivotal point for me in my journey was in when life was just, it was

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such a banger year for our family.

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It was so amazing.

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Um, our twins were graduating high school.

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My husband and our oldest were graduating from college.

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We sold the home that we, Raised our children in for 16 years and moved to our

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forever home rate on the Chesapeake face.

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We're right on the water.

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It's an absolutely beautiful community.

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My husband's job was going great.

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My job was going great.

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Our marriage was going great.

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There were no, there were no issues.

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for what was going on inside of me.

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I mean, I was, I was struggling.

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One, we moved in winter.

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And so you can't really go to the beach and enjoy the beach when it's cold out.

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Yeah.

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know, it's, it's really hard to do that.

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And I moved into a community with my best friend.

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I had this vision of what, what this was going to be like, to me, it was

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going to be like the golden girls, like we were going to, to be over at

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each other's houses all the time, just dropping in like, Hey, I'm here, you

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know, have a cup of coffee, whatever.

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Um, but during the winter, there was none of that.

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It was still very isolating.

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Even though we were in this wonderful community, we could not enjoy

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it because it was so cold out.

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And so I started to just kind of push that stuff down because like I was, there was

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too much going on that was really good.

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Um, by the end of 2019, I had pushed it down so much that I was bursting

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into tears every few days because it was just itching to come out.

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It was just like, look, you've been pushing us down for so many years.

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It is time for you to really pay attention to what's going on.

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I was like, Nope.

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I pushed it down with alcohol.

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I started smoking again.

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I started, you know, we would go out to bars all the time.

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And so I was not eating very healthy.

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It was just, it was just, I was not taking care of myself in an effort

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to not have to take care of myself.

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If that makes any sense.

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Okay.

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And so 2020 beginning of 2020.

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I was like, look, I've got, I had enough awareness of how I was feeling

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that I knew I needed some kind of help.

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And at that

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Um,

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be able to help you.

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And so I did that.

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I right at the height of covid.

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I had to call through my insurance company to get a telehealth visit because my

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doctor at the time did not offer them.

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So I had an appointment with a doctor that I never met, didn't know.

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Um, and I'm expected to like be vulnerable.

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And explain to this doctor that I've thought about running my

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vehicle into a telephone pole so I could get a few days off.

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I didn't, I, I did not feel comfortable sharing that information.

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You

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in the back of my mind, I'm like, okay, I tell them that

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I'm thinking about doing that.

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Are they now going to call?

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Call the local hospital and say, Hey, we need you to go.

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And, you know, it was, it was all these visions of like what happens

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in the movies when you're suicidal started to pop into my head.

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And I was just like, Nope, I'm just going to tell him that I cry all the time.

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And just, I just want to, I just don't want to feel that anymore.

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And so I did that and he put me on a medication that I had been

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on before because it worked.

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Okay.

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I mean, it worked well enough to make me feel better, but I never stayed on

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anything because while it made me feel better in a sense that I wasn't crying

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all the time, I really wasn't happy on any of these happy pills that they, you know,

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it was just, it never made me joyful.

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It never brought me, excitement into my life.

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It never showed me what I really had to be grateful for.

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Yeah, it's a little bit like having a panadol.

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Let's say your back's hurting and you'll have a panadol and yes,

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it'll ease the symptoms so to speak.

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But if your back needs some sort of real care, There is a spinal injury there.

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You can dull it down all you wish with a panadol.

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Yes, it'll help.

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But the ache's still there.

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The root cause is still there.

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So you've just dulled down the pain.

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So yes, temporarily, yes, you're sort of not crying because the pill's helping

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you with that, but you still have the same icky stuff going inside you.

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Exactly, exactly.

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When I went to the talk therapist, it was, and I, I always want to preface

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that she was absolutely doing her job.

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She knew she knew what she was doing.

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However, I don't think she was the right therapist for me, because for me, it felt

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like, The same routine I had been through a few times before with other therapists,

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where you start to talk about your childhood, you talk about your family, and

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then it gets to the point where, you know, you think that, oh, my gosh, it's all my

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mom's fault, It's, it's always, you know, it's always one of the, one of the parents

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faults that you're feeling this way.

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Granted, my childhood was not as,

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loving and comforting as I once believed it to be.

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But, I know that my parents, I know now, that my parents did

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the best job that they could.

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With the knowledge that they had at the time.

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don't, I can't fault them for that.

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Um, it did take a lot of years for me to get to that point

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and to, to understand that.

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But, what I wasn't getting anywhere with talk therapy.

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She, she

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also, maybe I'll just stop you there.

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We will continue with the story because it's very interesting, but you bring

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out a really, really important point that, you know, when we start looking

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inwards, the first thing we see is all the pain that's caused to us.

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And usually it goes to our parents or somebody who's very, very close to us.

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It does not mean that they did their worst.

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They were trying the best that they were able to the best

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people that they could be.

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And it's also that, um, we are attracting those people like

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that pain still inside us.

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Yes, we chose them as well.

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That they're also bringing out.

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All of the challenges that we needed to have anyway, in the beginning,

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when we start looking in, we really, because that's a coping mechanism.

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So if you're going up from the emotional chart, going up from depression or

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suicidal thoughts, you're climbing up.

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The first way up is to actually start blaming others because that's how

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you are at least having some hope.

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So you are actually progressing on the emotional scale a little bit

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when you're starting to blame others.

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And then there's a higher road above where you start realizing,

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okay, it's not with them.

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Right.

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So it's a very natural thing that we'll come out and we'll just

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bring blame the rest of the world.

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Yeah, it is.

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It's very natural.

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Um, but it also does take more.

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You can't just stop there, right?

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You can't just stop at that blame and be like, Oh, it's everybody else's fault.

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Um, you have to take, you have to take responsibility for your own healing.

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You know, what you went through, what you went through

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is not, not your fault, right?

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You didn't, you didn't say, okay, I want you to treat me this way.

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I want you to treat me this way.

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Yes, we did attract it and we did sign up for these lessons, but on the

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human side, it's not our fault, right?

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But we do have to take responsibility.

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For how we heal from it and you can, and you can still have, you know,

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barring any, any, um, uh, that is really, there is abuse out there

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that is really unforgivable, right?

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But, but barring any of that, you can still learn to have a relationship.

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your parents, even though they may not have been the best parents in the world

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That's great.

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throughout the year, but most of those phone calls and visits were fueled with,

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um, anger, frustration, sadness, guilt.

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is no more of that there, you know, there, there, there are fewer phone

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calls, fewer visits, but they're filled with nice conversation.

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They're filled with joy and laughter.

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And you've been.

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I would rather.

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You're building boundaries.

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You're building all the boundaries.

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You're giving them the space that they need, so you are prepared for it.

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There's a balance in your interactions.

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And then there's only so much of, sometimes, let's say, the lower vibration

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energy that you can have, you can take, and then you need to go back and you

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need to fill your own cup as well.

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Bring yourself up as well.

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Yeah.

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And that's one of the things I learned when I, when I decided to,

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the medication, stop talk therapy, I, I was at my desk, I was crying

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and I was like, I need something that is going to get rid of this.

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I want something that's going to get rid of this feeling.

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I was so, I was so angry with all the people who said.

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You have to learn to manage your depression.

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You have to learn to manage your anxiety.

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You have to learn how to survive with it.

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You can't get rid of it.

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You can't cure it.

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And I'm just, I was angry.

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Yeah,

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as well.

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But it's, if you knew how to do it, you would do it Like anyone

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understands, like, especially if there's someone who's just crying every day.

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You know, you of all the people really wanna change your things.

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You don't need to hear once more, Hey, you need to change, you need to get over it.

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Like how?

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Tell me and I'll do it.

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Okay.

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Okay.

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Um, Okay.

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Okay.

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Okay.

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healing because I didn't want to take any medications.

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I didn't want to take supplements.

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I didn't want to change my eating habits at the time.

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And I just wanted something that was going to get rid of it.

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And this modality called the emotion code up.

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On my Google search I was like, Oh, okay, emotions.

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Okay, let me, I started researching it and I was, I was a little skeptical

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at first because again, my, my only introduction to energy work before this

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was acupuncture and the law of attraction.

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That was, that was pretty much my only introduction by this point,

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and this was, this was 2020.

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So, and this was at the height of COVID, and so there was a lot of talk

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about being isolated, and there's a lot of online work, that kind of stuff,

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this modality could be done through.

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Through zoom or through email.

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Like you didn't even have to be in the same

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Transcript.

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I started looking into it, and it was

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Okay.

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this modality of using muscle testing or kinesiology to find trapped emotions in

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your body, and then you use a refrigerator magnet over your governing meridian times,

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ten times, however many times you need to do it to release these trapped emotions.

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And at first I was like,

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Um, so much for having me.

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because what do I have to lose?

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But a

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And I'm going to mute everything off the screen from now on.

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Okay.

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Give me five, enjoy the show, as we go through here.

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Okay?

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different layers.

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So just a second I'll just, I'll just get this, I'll just get this.

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to move forward with this?

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Am I willing to go into debt

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Um,

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I'm going to, I'm going to check this out.

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And it was, so I signed up for the webinar.

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And by the end of the webinar, I was like, I'm getting my certification.

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I don't, I don't care where their money's coming from.

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I'm going to figure it out.

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And I signed up to get my certification wholly just to work on myself,

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just to learn everything I could about it, to work on myself.

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Um, but through that, I also signed up for their second one, the body code.

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So within a month I completed the emotion code and then I

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signed up for the body code.

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And then this modality called easy entity release came into my awareness.

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And this was challenged beliefs a little bit, because I, I believe

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that we have ghosts around us.

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I believe that we have spirits around us, but to think that they're like

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us negatively, like that was, that was like refrigerator magnet helping

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me to heal was already woo enough.

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Now

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And that's it for this week's edition of the NBC Standard Times.

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for listening.

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And please, if you have any questions, please reach out to me.

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hey, that's how I picture them now.

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They're just, they're just annoying energies that are just poking at you.

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What did you learn about these entities?

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Because I think a lot of our listeners are going to be very curious about that.

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What are these entities?

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And it's not very often that we actually talk about it.

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You know, when you're reading blogs and so on, we all talk about the stuff I believe

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that's more digestible for the rest.

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hmm.

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Um, stuff that Is VooVoo, but at least it's a little bit more mainstream VooVoo.

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Now, what is this new stuff that you're talking about?

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What are entities?

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What is all this negative energy?

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Oh, these entities, they're so fun.

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when I first, when entities first started coming into my awareness,

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because the body code does go into entities, but it doesn't really go into.

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What kind of entities or what they can do that kind of stuff.

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And so this, this modality of the easy entity release, um, it's now all

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in an app called healing remembered.

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beautiful app.

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there are these entities that have, that have been here since.

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It's the beginning of time.

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you think the beginning of time is like Adam and Eve.

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No, this is, this goes so, so much further back than, than Adam and Eve.

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they are, you know, alien attachments.

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They're, they're, they're beings that come from different universes, galaxies,

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just, You know, people think that, that is just so explained, and you cannot

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logically explain energy, entities, alien attachments, you just can't.

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You either, you either believe it or you don't.

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Mm

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Well, yeah, how I explain it is that we, as we see this physical world,

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or as we see the life on Earth, that's like a tip of the iceberg.

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And that's just a little bit of what we see.

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We think we are in control of our lives.

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We're really not.

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We try and control them every day.

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But literally I could just pass out right now on this podcast.

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There's no control.

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Right.

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And like you say, the there's so many intergalactic beings, just like the

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light beams, just like this guidance that we tune into that other negative.

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There's the other dark side as well.

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Um, I think they're both energy coaches.

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So there's a lot more that goes on energetically.

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Then we were just aware of and so what happened when you started

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cleaning off these boo boo entities and aliens and these mystic dark

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beings, what then started happening and what did you learn about yourself?

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When I, when I started to learn about light score and my light scoring being

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the light energy versus dark energy.

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And, um, I was taught, you know, try, you always want your light score to be at a

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hundred percent because that means that your, you don't have as much darkness.

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Attached to you and this, this score can absolutely fluctuate

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depending on how you're feeling.

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If you're sitting more in gratitude more often, that light score is

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going to be higher most of the time.

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When you start getting into that, those vibrations of lack and depression

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and anxiety, it starts to come down and those nefarious things can

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come back in and be like, Oh yay, we get to feed off of her again.

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And.

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I started to really pay attention to these entities that were attached, that

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were feeding off of my low vibration energy, it taught me to shift my energy.

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You know, I was able to release them back to wherever they came from.

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I send them back with love and elevated consciousness because the entities

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that I seem to attract, are ready to let go of that negative world.

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They are ready to move on into a more positive role in their

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lifetime, They have their lifetime.

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We have ours.

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There's no difference in that.

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And, and they're ready to shift their energy just like

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we want to shift our energy.

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And so, with, with my clients, Bringing these entities up into our awareness when

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we work with them, they are ready to let go of the the help that these entities

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and beings were giving them at the time, because do allow them to attach to us

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because they do make us feel better.

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But in order for us to feel better, we still have to be in those low vibrations

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so that the entities keep beating us what it is that we're looking for.

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I'll just give listeners an example here.

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So, for example, maybe there's a time when you just learn to drive and it's the first

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time behind the wheels and you're scared.

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And because you're scared, you're just wanting that help.

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Mm

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And so there's a being that comes in, kind of like just takes your body for a ride.

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You know, yes, you're in the car and this being takes over.

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And so physically, you're the one who's driving the car, but it's the

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being that's helping you telling you when to break and so on.

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So you have needed this being at some point in time.

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Problem is it's not a conscious agreement.

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You're not aware of it, and if they come in, they might not actually leave

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because they came in on something you were afraid off and then say that, and

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so sometimes when they are actually down with their energy, because they need to

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feed off your fear, they'll actually wire it back and bring more of the fear back.

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so they can help you, yep.

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So that's where the repeating parts, the repeating patterns come in

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and you think, well, I am trying to have this positive mindset.

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I'm trying to not think about my toxic X, but it just keeps coming back

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because you have a being in there.

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You have a circuitry there that's literally rewiring and bringing

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back the whole thing again.

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Yep.

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That is an amazing way to explain it.

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That is, yeah, I love that explanation.

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Um, yeah, and, and, and when we're able to release these things.

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gives our energy and our bodies the ability to heal the way

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that it's, that it's meant to.

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And so with the help of those three modalities, within four months of starting

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my certification or starting with, with this modality of the emotion code, about

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80 percent healed within four months.

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Why a trend?

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dealt with anxiety and depression.

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For, by this time I was in 2020, I was 44, 43.

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And so I had 40 years of anxiety and depression that

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I had been carrying around.

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And it wasn't all mine.

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And that was the other thing I realized was that I was carrying around

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my mom's energy, my dad's energy.

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I was carrying around my grandparents energy.

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I was carrying around energy going back up to 30 generations.

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That was feeding this anxiety and depression.

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And so after that, that four months, I started to kind of hit a wall with,

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with the energy work um, someone, I joined a coaching program and.

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I was told that I had to start meditating and journaling and working

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out and eating better, doing all this, this stuff that, That I had tried

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before, but it never really stuck.

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you know, I tried meditation, but I couldn't sit for very long.

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And so I, you know, I wasn't doing it right and all this stuff.

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And when I started doing it, then it was like, Oh my gosh, I could, I could

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sit for like 5 to 10 minutes without really like, I still had monkey mind

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coming through, but I was able to.

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Not control the, the, the thoughts that were coming in,

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but not allow them to control me.

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I was able to push them aside and really allow my body to be

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in the moment of where I was.

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Um, journaling was a little bit harder to get into, um, because my privacy

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around writing down my thoughts been, um, interfered with when I was a teenager.

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My mom

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Yeah,

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read a letter I wrote to my sister.

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but even before that, because you had a bipolar mom, And then she was doing

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a lot of the emotions in the house.

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She was taking that space.

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Even as a child, you never got to really fully express it.

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So now suddenly you're supposed to do something that you've almost never done.

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Yeah,

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fact that, the fact that, you know, my mom had read my, my

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private letter to my sister.

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And made it such a big deal.

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She called me home from school because of what was in this letter.

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And, and granted I look back now and she absolutely should have.

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however she should not have opened the letter in the first place, right?

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And so that, that really deterred me from writing.

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From, from writing things down.

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And so I actually had to do energy, an energy session around being

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able to, to journal my thoughts.

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because before that, if I wrote something down, I was so afraid that

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my husband or kids would read it.

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And so, and I can, I know I can trust them, right?

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I mean, logically I know I can trust them, but my body and my my heart did

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not believe that I could trust anybody.

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With me writing down my thoughts and so after about two months of meditation

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Getting back into journaling You know really digging into like how

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to reparent myself How do I teach myself to have my emotions and be

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okay with having the bad emotions?

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Right.

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Because, you know, we seem to be okay with having the good emotions, but,

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you know, it's, we're really deterred from having the bad emotions because

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they really don't make us feel good.

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But once I learned how to have them, I realized, you know what, when I'm

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mad, when I'm angry, it might last about 30 to 120 seconds, right?

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Maybe a minute or two.

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If I let myself be mad, it does not have to last.

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A whole day.

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It doesn't have to last a whole month.

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It does.

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I don't have to hold a grudge.

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because you've given the energy, that space to come out, it's

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actually a lot, I guess, darker.

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It just takes more space because if you try and contain it inside,

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then it has nowhere to go.

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So it just stays in the body longer.

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You keep feeling it like the amount of it, a little amount

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of it, because it's not gone.

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When you let it flow, it's okay.

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It just comes out.

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It does.

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And it, and it doesn't last very long.

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Um, it's just, yeah.

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And so within six months of finding this modality of the emotion

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code, my anxiety and depression was a hundred percent gone, gone.

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I still have, I still have moments of worry.

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I still have moments of sadness.

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I even have, even like this past, um, This past weekend, my whole, my whole Friday,

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Friday or Saturday, I was just, I was sad.

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I was depressed.

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I was like, I want, I wanted to feel happy.

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But what I realized was my daughter's baby shower was the next day.

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And my body was grieving the fact that my child was going to become a mom and

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did that leave me as a mom, even though logically I know that it's, you know,

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I'm still her mom, she's still going to need me, but it was just like, there

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was some grief coming up about that.

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And that I did have to work through, it did energy work on it and

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it didn't lift because I had to actually allow myself to feel it.

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And because I was so busy trying to get stuff ready for the baby shower,

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I didn't allow myself to feel it.

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So I still get stuck in those moments sometimes.

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But you're talking about a very important point that yes, there's

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energy work that you do at a spiritual level or energetic level.

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There's also a body level of emotions and they just need to be given time.

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It still needs to be through.

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You can't rush through the process.

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And yes, your body might take a lot lesser time when you're

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doing something like this, but it still needs to feel the emotions.

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That has, you know, so when you're actually letting your emotions out,

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whether that was anger, whether that was guilt or shame, when you can let

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that out in real time, whether you're journaling, however your safe way is,

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then you've given them a place to go.

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So it's good to let it go.

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It's great that you could work through it.

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And great point that, that we need to work with our bodies and emotions as well.

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That's great.

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we are, we are, we are humans.

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We are, we are here to have a human experience and sometimes

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we have to really just.

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Just be human.

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But you know, this, this energy work, it saved my life.

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It really did.

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And, and I don't, I don't take that lightly.

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I'm incredibly grateful for, this modality coming into my awareness

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and being able to make it my own.

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You know, when, when people say, what is it that you do?

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I always say, you know, well, well, my practice is rooted in the emotion code.

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It's rooted in, in muscle testing.

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But I work from, from an app that has over a thousand different,

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energetic things in it to address.

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And I have over a hundred different charts.

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I work from that goes from toxins to beliefs, to emotions, to entities,

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to offensive energies, um, you know, energy work can work for everything.

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It really can't, it can work for relationships.

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You can do energy work between two people to clear the energy between two people.

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you can do energy work around your mental health.

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You can do it around your fitness goals.

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You can do it around your money blocks.

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It is so expansive on what it can be used for.

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So what is a typical journey like for your client?

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Like what happens when they start and then how long do

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they have to go to the session?

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So a, my typical clients usually do six to 12 sessions to start with.

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And They usually do the six because in this is, this is one session a week

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over six weeks within six weeks you are going to now have at least a 50

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percent reduction in your symptoms, at least a 50 percent reduction.

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And I think what helps my clients get there so quickly is that.

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I'm constantly, constantly telling them that they have to

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do the conscious work as well.

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You can't just do the energetic work.

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You can't just, Sit there and have me do the energy clearing.

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We clear all this energy and then you turn around and go back to continuing to do

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the same patterns that you've been doing.

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If you continue.

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If we're working on, let's say we're working on anxiety and we clear,

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we clear this anxiety in the first session we clear these entities, um,

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but you get off the phone and the first thing you do is go to a friend

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and start complaining about how your, what your day was like, and you start

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complaining about what you're lacking.

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All you're going to do is, is put more back into that space that we

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just cleared all that energy from.

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And so I encourage them to.

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Do the mindset work as well.

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You have to shift your mindset order to keep the energy work

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Because you can't, you can't just do both.

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We can clear all the energy in the world and after each session feel

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better, you feel calmer, you're relaxed, you're ready for a nap.

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You take that nap, but you go right back into doing what you were doing.

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You're just going to, you're just going to put stuff back.

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Yeah.

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Yeah.

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So our listeners right now, they're wondering how they can reach out to you.

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And if there's something that you can probably give them to them, give

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to them right now, so that that can be their takeaway, just to have a

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feel of what energy work is like.

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Yeah.

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So you can find me, um, all over at, uh, design your

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existence, sign your existence.

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com, Instagram, Facebook.

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Um, And the takeaway that I want you to take with you is that

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you're worth spending your time on.

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Learn to sit in meditation, in some kind of meditation, even if it's

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just for a minute, a day to start.

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Whether it's guided or in silence, and I always recommend working

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towards sitting silence, sitting with yourself, um, but start somewhere,

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don't just say, oh, I've tried this for three days and it's not working.

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Um, it takes a lot longer than three days for something to shift.

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Um, stick with it, make it a routine.

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Don't, don't.

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Don't discount how powerful you are.

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Don't just keep giving your power away because you can't do something.

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That's so well said.

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Amazing.

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Thanks a lot.

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And yeah, this was.

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Such an amazing episode.

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Thanks for sharing your time with us and listeners, please reach out to Tanya.

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She's an amazing energy coach and she does wonderful one on one sessions to

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help you with your growth journey and whatever it is that you are seeking.

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In your life.

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So here's to a very good life to all of us.

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And thanks Tanya.

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We will see you again with another episode of the art of life podcast.

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Here's to transformation and here's to a better life.